Sunday, April 10, 2005
sigh... yesterday blog at nite.. and in the end sth happen.. so du lan... haiz.. hmm.. need to rewrite everything.. sigh...
Abt yesterday KX trg .. so warm up and dade add on some leg thing.. haiyo.. my leg still cramp now.. =X hmm... den the 5 points shooting.. lucky my group did finish all the shooting in time.. den end wif some da dui.. sigh.. orh ya.. zhi hao also come to the training.. sigh.. 1 more come in i not space liao... sigh.. yesterday between the da dui.. zw dade ask me to chi inside.. and ask me why i dun wan to chi.. issit because later ppl will say sth.. well.. basically i do really think tt ppl will say sth.. and i dun dare to stand inside the red box.. haiz.. after the nike 5 on 5 .. haiz.. after that day i lose something.. that is my confidence.. sometime i play bb outside wif friends.. all complaint that i like to stand outside the red box.. sigh.. as a zhong feng but dun seem like a zhong feng.. haiz.. orh ya.. well actually on the second day of nike 5 on 5.. dunnoe why i feel a "power".. well can say is very strange... that day i play until like quite rough.. and like most of the zhong feng movement gt do out .. weird.. den once i fall the power like gone.. and now i like no confidence liao.. asking me to stand back to the red box like a fear ba.. sigh.. how how.. =((
Posted at Sunday, April 10, 2005 by kIaNtAt
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Friday, April 01, 2005
happy april's fool day.. muhaha.. haiyo.. today i got fool for once.. lolx. early in the morning i go sch just the mins i sit down on the parade square i got fool... =.= i told myself not to believe any 1 .. haha.. but early too gong liao.. lolx. got fool.. haiyo.. hmm .. well yesterday i went for my appointment again.. and this time as usual.. ALONE.. yawn.. so boring.. wait there until almost going to sleep.. haha.. so du lan.. so slow de.. haiz.. den den.. around 420 i finally got to see the doctor.. and he say my hand is ok liao.. and is join back.. just wait until i become stronger... and he also say now i still growing and my bone will still grow.. hehe. so now..i must be careful.. cause my left wrist is still weak.. so i cannot carry heavy thing and cannot do my NAFA.. haha.. 2.4 no need to run.. pull up not need to pull.. hehe.. but ns i will need to do.. haha.. sian.. hmm.. den went to buy a pair of teva slipper.. haha.. golden village yishun have world of sports.. haha.. 20 % discount.. tot of buying the dakine bag.. lolx.. 2nd thought... dun wan liao.. haha.. i going broke haha.. =X k lah.. logging off.. see ya.. =)) miss me every one. haha... =))
Posted at Friday, April 01, 2005 by kIaNtAt
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Thursday, March 24, 2005
well well well.. haaha.. i'm online now. lolx.. my mum lock up the room and i still abt to find the key to unlock.. muhaha.. thanks to my sis.. lolx. she so stupid ... yesterday i can heard her open the drawer haha.. didnt expect me to hear the sound ar?? haha.. hmm.. well long time nv blog le.. haha.. ppl reading sure got miss me de rite?? muhaha.. well just got back from sch.. haiz.. thanks to lucille.. =X make me stay back in sch to do the field events.. yawn.. sooo tired.. haha.. actually i and ryan wan to run 1.. but in de end ryan run... lolx.. lucille.. see i sooo gd nv run.. i not so heartless as ryan hor.. =)) hmm.. just noe saw ee san... injured his neck... play bb den dunnoe how he sprain 1 lah.. haiyo.. must be playing and joking at the same time lah.. :)) hmm well...bascially tmr is GOOD FRIDAY so not need to go sch.. maybe wanna play bb.. so dunnoe yet.. see how it go ba.. =) well.. soo tired.. yawn.. man.. i miss her alot. 3 week didnt get to see her liao.. haiz.. next week she say she will be busy wif some stuff soo i expect tt she dun have the time to go out to ba.. sigh.. =( well.. see how it go.. sat having KX trging 7 pm to 10 pm ba.. sooo hope i can do really better now? but haiz.. see my last trg like screw up... attempts miss like siao.. haiz.. den den shoot all like gone.. sigh.. my hand still pain a little.. den now my left knee is giving me abit of probs too.. sigh.. all de probs come now.. sigh.. mar 31 having my appointment.. haiz.. go alone again.. later wait there like dead ppl... =X haiz.. see how ba.. k lah.. gtg le. try to update as soon as possible.. =)) see ya..take care every one..
Posted at Thursday, March 24, 2005 by kIaNtAt
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Thursday, March 17, 2005
haiz.. this few days i feeling so STRESS.. my mum lah.. haiz.. keep telling me to study study.. I'M GOING CRAZY LE LAH.. HAIZ.. happy happy at home watching tv later she come to me say wat am i going to do.. by hearing this thing u noe how frustrating i get anot.. haiz.. tok tok den she say say until wat my dad, my neighbour, my cousin.. all those stupid thing coming out le.. i soo fan.. i come hse i see until all the same thing i feel like i in jail lor.. i reach home already sooo fan le.. sigh.. i dunnoe how to survive ar... she keep giving me all the extra stress .. haiz.. i dunnoe how am i going to deal wif all this sia.. maybe by the end of this year i go crazy le.. haiz.. I ALSO WAN TO PROVE TO HER TT I NOT LIKE MY SISTER... ARGH.. SUMONE HELP ME........ I GOING CRAZY.. SIGH... ='( I FEEL LIKE GOING OUT RELAX AND DUN WAN TO STAY AT HOME.. HAIZ..
Posted at Thursday, March 17, 2005 by kIaNtAt
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Friday, March 11, 2005
haiz.. just got back from the parent meeting session.. haiz.. my result like fuck sia.. haiz.. went there happy happy.. haiz.. come back feel like staying outside instead at home.. haiz.. wth man... my class test screw me up sia.. haiz.. class test i did not really well.. haiz.. den my commom test i pass all expect my D&T and combine humanites.. haiz...then the marks was like all underline lor.. expect of POA and my MATHS.. haiz.. well i admit tt other i did not really force on.. haiz.. but then is like poa and maths i spent alot of effort lor.. haiz.. y just no one how i feel.. U THINK I WAN TO FAIL ONE MEH?? U THINK I FEEL GD BY LETTING U SAY ME ONE MEH?? I IN SCH ALREADY TAHAN LIKE SHIT LIAO.. NOW AT HOME U NAG AT ME.. COMPARE ME WIF MY COUSIN AND NEIGHBOUR.. SINCE U LIKE THEM SO MUCH GO FIND THEM TO BE UR CHILD LAH.. IS NOT A BIG DEAL LOSING ONE OF ME.. HAIZ.. IN SCH I GOT SUAN.. TIO SHOOT.. HAIZ. WAT BIG HEAD AR.. WAT BANANA COW..DUNNOE WAT THE FUCK STILL GOT LAH.. IN SCH TOK TO PPL LIKE OFFENDED THEM LIKE TT.. THEY JUST SAY WAT THEY LIKE... HAVE THEM THINK OF MY FEELING ANOT?? I ALWAY CLOSE MY EYE, EAR... I TRY TO MAKE NO TROUBLE WIF FRIEND.. BUT NOW.. HAIZ.. IS NOT I WAN TO SAY.. BUT NOW IS I REALLY CANNOT TAKE IT ANY MORE.. I WAN TO FIND SOMEONE TO TOK ALSO GOT TROUBLE.. HAIZ.. WHY AM I SUFFERING ALL THIS?? HAIZ.. AM I REALLY A BURDEN TO MY MUM.. IF REALLY IS.. TELL ME.. I LEAVE THE HSE.. I LIVE BY MY OWN.. I DIE I DIE.. UR NOT NEED TO CARE ABT ME.. HAIZ.. WAT AM I GOING TO DO??? HAIZ.. ALL I WAN IS EVERYONE AROUND ME IS HAPPY CAN LE.. WHY ISSIT SO HARD?? HAIZ.. I BE GD, PPL TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME.. I BE BAD.. PPL SAY BAD THING BEHING MY BACK.. WHY ISSIT SO HARD TO BE MYSELF.. HAIZ.. I 'M FEEL THAT I REALLY A FAILURE.. HAIZ.. I WILL BE GLAD TT I DIE NOW.. HAIZ. SO IT CAUSE LESS SADDENESS BETWEEN EVERYONE.. haiz.. anyway i have promise my form teacher that i will work hard le lah... so i will try to study hard from now.. haiz.. i also promise tt i CANNOT fail her history and social studies test for the term 2 1st two week.. haiz.. hope i can become my old shelf where i will be hardworking like pri sch .. haiz.. HOPE MIRCALE WILL HAPPEN TO ME SOME HOW.. not in o level but in the friends and who ever ard me.. haiz.. one phrase :::::: If there is a will, there is always a way :::::: i truely believe this.. just hope i have the way to survive this time.. =( haiz.. signing off.. :'(
Sorry if i had said a few words in front.. haiz..
Posted at Friday, March 11, 2005 by kIaNtAt
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Saturday, March 05, 2005
back.. haha.. just came back from KX trg.. wow.. this few week trg very " SHIOK " sia.. lolx.. soooo tired.. lolx.. the leg here and there very suan.. haha... dade tekan us ar.. haha today starting we do the 4 different type of so called warm up.. den we do abit of splinting.. lolx.. den den we do some shooting and 8 du passing.. =X we also do some for the leg thing.. haha.. tt is at the end.. wow.. tt 1 hot ar.. haaa.. my shoes going to lan liao.. lolx.. need to buy new shoes liao lah.. haha.. but this few day broke le.. lolx. no choice need to save up again.. haiz.. den did 120 sit-up.. den reach home eat a few thing.. haha.. feel like my 120 sit up is waste of effort like tt... lolx.. like tt die lah.. how to kill my fats?? lolx.. KILL KILL KILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOSE WEIGHT~!!! LOSE WEIGHT~!!!!!!!!! i dun wan to be FAT.. haha... orh ya... i still need to go cut my hair.. lolx.. i wan to cut ' V ' le.. lolx. stupid subarsh go cut my V... argh.. no go cut.. lolx..den trim my hair also.. =))
Posted at Saturday, March 05, 2005 by kIaNtAt
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haiz.. today sat .. haiz.. dunnoe why feel like crying.. haiz. miss my dad so much.. my mum just took out a bunch of money to count.. haiz.. =( she say is my dad leave for me to study de.. haiz.. ='( my dad have save up money for me to study.. haiz.. i feel so bad.. sigh.. althought he's gone but he still leave this money for me to study .. haiz.. i'm really touch.. ='( i do miss him very much.. =( why the world so unfair.. why must i have no dad to accompany me?? why why?? looking at those lucky kids.. every sunday going out wif their happy family.. i feel i'm a child without a family.. haiz.. no one know how i feel..haiz.. THE WORLD IS SO UNFAIR.. haiz.. some question keep flow through pass my mind.. haiz... wat if i did not make it through my O's level?? haiz.. den i wasting my dad effort and i disappionted him.. den i dunnoe how to face my mum and my dad.. haiz.. ='( losing ur love 1 doesn't feel good at all.. hope ppl out there can really take their time out to spent wif their love 1.. haiz.. really miss my dad.. :'(
Posted at Saturday, March 05, 2005 by kIaNtAt
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Wednesday, March 02, 2005
haiz.. today sch was a totally suck 1.. haiz.. so tired the whole day.. yawn.. i fall aslp in my eng lesson.. and ss and poa lesson.. OMG.. excuse me sir.. u noe this year is wat year anot?? haiz.. O lvl leh.. haha.. haiz.. my mum keep nagging at me... arh.. i going crazy le.. haiz.. just heard tt my form teacher call my sis.. then she ask my mum to go down to see her.. OMG.. haiz.. hope is nth serious.. lolx.... orh ya.. today pe out class having a interclass floor ball wif the 5A1 haiyo. can play until get into fight.. haiz.. dun see why is they a nid to fight lor.. haiz..
1 big problem:
haiz.. nowaday all my friends doesn't show me any respect at all le. haiz.. i dun mind they making fun of me.. saying my nick name.. but sth have really gone too far.. they now like not onli make fun .. they every dun treat me as friend lor.. haiz.. wat i say they will sure say sth to 'shoot' back... is sth i dun really like lor.. haiz.. but they ' shoot ' like damn irrating lor.. haiz... dunnoe dem lah...dun really wan to break the friendship.. haiz.. dunnoe lah.. see how it go now..
Posted at Wednesday, March 02, 2005 by kIaNtAt
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